thoughts, ramblings, burdens

I have been in a surprisingly introspective mood the past couple days. I am not sure why, I certainly have plenty of other things to keep me occupied, but perhaps it is just my procrastinating nature even important reflection can be used for evil.

The thoughts swirling in my head are both random and disturbing. Starting with my reoccuring dream of being in an accident. Last night marks the third night in a row I dreamed I was in a car accident. Not the same accident, a different one each time, its quite disturbing because its so real i wake myself up and then have to think if it really happened or not. Maybe I should go look in one of those dream journals....

"Common symbol of the self, the “the direction we are headed in our lives.” A more immediate symbol than planes and trains and ships (which indicate larger concerns and transitions) due to its ubiquity in everyday living.Dreams of car accidents, as a rule, should not be considered literally precognitive. They are reflections of emotional “loss of control,” however, which causes excessive behaviors and erratic decisions in waking life." ~www.dreamdoctor.com

Well that solves it, I am experiencing an emotional loss of control. Riiiight, well maybe that is the is reason I feel so thoughtful lately.

In other news I have been evaluating my life lately, specifically my relationships with others. Some things have come to my attention lately that have given me pause, and have made me take a step back and think through how I have relationship with others. A question that hit me on my drive home this afternoon is, "Do I have Christ-centered relationships?" I mean sure I have a lot of christian friends, but how am I relating to them.... This will require much more thought and reflection on my part but already I am being shown or am realizing the shallowness of most of my relationships.

And I don't mean to say that I should be beating everyone over the head with my bible but I mean am I sharing my walk with others? Sharing what I am learning or not learning? My struggles? My praises? and are people sharing these with me? Do people feel comfortable sharing with me? Am I to judgemental? Do I give God-centered/ God-inspired advice?

The answers are maybe... sometimes, but not nearly enough. This business of being in relationship with others grows more complex everyday... I will keep thinking and keep you posted.