recreation

apparently this is my time of the year to blog.... spring cleaning of the mind perhaps??

anyway since getting back from Mission Trip there have been lots of thoughts swirling in my head. one of the few times i feel the need to unburden myself in the written form. i am not even sure what i want or need to say really just feel the need to write. it reminds me of that new anna nalick song that i like so much....

" 2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to"

now the italics won't turn off...

it's like waking up and suddenly I am not sure I know the person I am, and certainly not sure if I like it. to see that image reflecting back where every facet of my personality is separated and enlarged for examination is overwhelming. how do i start? where do i begin? where can i run and hide?

God is trying to work in me, to create something perfect out of his flawed creation. i am not sure i am ready to molded yet... being broken down and reformed cannot be easy.